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Crimson flames tied through my ears
Rollin' high and mighty traps
Pounced with fire on flaming roads
Using ideas as my maps

"We'll meet on edges, soon," said I
Proud 'neath heated brow.
Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now.

Half-wracked prejudice leaped forth
"Rip down all hate," I screamed
Lies that life is black and white
Spoke from my skull. I dreamed
Romantic facts [flanks] of musketeers
Foundationed deep, somehow.
Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now.

Girls' faces formed the forward path
From phony jealousy
To memorizing politics
Of ancient history
Flung down by corpse evangelists
Unthought of, though, somehow.
Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now.

A self-ordained professor's tongue
Too serious to fool
Spouted out that liberty
Is just equality in school
"Equality," I spoke the word
As if a wedding vow.
Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now.

In a soldier's stance, I aimed my hand
At the mongrel dogs who teach
Fearing not that I'd become my enemy
In the instant that I preach
My pathway led [Sisters fled] by confusion boats
Mutiny from stern to bow.
Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now.

Yes, my guard stood hard when abstract threats
Too noble to neglect
Deceived me into thinking
I had something to protect
Good and bad, I define these terms
Quite clear, no doubt, somehow.
Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now.

tuesday tuesday

Suddenly, Roger McQuinn's voice singing "I was so much older then, I'm younger than that now" re-enters my trodden brain and that's all I can repeat for a day or so...trying to remember the line about crimson flames...does anyone know the rest?

Addiction is my passion for this evening, reading everything I can get my hands on about Buprenorphrine and realizing it would sincerely and totally help 80% of my patients, and then finding the line I was dreading....PAs and FNPs are not allowed to participate in the program...another fight to have in the face of too much to already fight about. I know it is just a few phone calls to California to find out what it really happening out there, but then again, that takes some time.

So, right now, it is a two dog night...cats somewhere also...this warming trend almost makes me want to run naked down the streets of Livingston...dowager hump and sagging boobs to boot.

winter with two dogs, one face and two hands

montana...winter...two dogs
wet snow
the sun, up by 7 am
the light is happening
soon