What does it take?

In the time we live our lives...our confusion...what does it take to really love somebody?

Gigi, Savai, Amelie...maybe the first time I really felt love was when that nurse brought little Amelie out of the surgical suite and handed her to me...or maybe that was just some kind of silly attachment? Or perhaps it was when Chieko first came out of my body...I think I was too young to feel that with my first born...I dunno...

Tomorrow, Milou gets her female organs removed...

Maybe tomorrow, the death mentality will lift...the guns to the head will go away, and the clear light of day will supersede the darkness???

For now, I started a new website called "Beyond Ordinary Mind." .com Why? I don't know...maybe it will come to me.

Happy Chokhur Duchen.